Once you tell me something it can't be retracted It's like flickering light in northern twinkling stars...A domino of separation of anguish and anger Blizzards On the sea far from all but coastal Remember in the tiny cafe you sat facing this summer A book of introspection as you flipped the pages Pages of the chapter titled " Once you tell me something it can’t be retracted" Your whole body changes... The way you smell, Your reflection How it feels when you avoid my touch Like a distant moon, you shower your lights in the despair of meadows and in the blink of midnight The us will be no more than a victim you and a distant I Killing me in the leaching presence Leaving me at the mercy of mine a parasite of my own demise I’ll see it as an ephemeral moment of evaporating droplets, It’s a struggle to hold or to let you go now Yet all I could ever do is to observe and comprehend in hindsight "You’ll say my detachment has grown stronger and I no longer feel the appetite or need for emotions It’s like an inward void Neither you were naïve nor I was capable of camouflaging in the shades of foresight Falling into the abyss…A mirror of reflection I saw the face I once used to call mine Naked barren banal and all but my inner dejected vice Behind the mask you hold there’s just a sabotaged hollow pretentious looser and nothing I’d like to call mine You have grown over me like an ivy So much so that it has covered my mansion with the questions you pinch bite and suck the joy I hold inside Who I was with, where I was last night, Why my dress has shortened, and why my notifications chime at midnight You had left me to myself and it’s me whose strangled It’s me whose harmed and it’s me whose now broken for a lifetime" Once you tell me something it can't be retracted There’s answers trying to make me open my eyes…Still every night I close them And act to sleep as I call you goodnight Once you tell me something it can't be retracted…What’s left except the lies we reflect in our eyes By: Kshitij Sinha 15/12/2024
